here it goes... i've pretty much have taken advice from the bible once more.
see, there's this girl, who is my boyfriend's best friend. he used to be "in love," with her. and she's trying to basically break us up. this is not the first time.
my boyfriend is in the marines.... we have been dating a total of 4 months. He just just got back from basic training where he's been at for three of the four months we've been together. before he left this girl basically went around trying to dig up something on me to tell him to get him to break up with me. By doing this she only made herself look like an idiot and pretty much made a mess out of things with me and my family that i had to clean up. then when he left all was better. though she started more stuff between me and my already estranged family. see i'm adopted and have finally came in contact with my biological mother and have been trying to create a strong relationship with her. and basically this girl has just been talking a load of crap! making it go back to my mother and my siblings. and i've just let this roll of my back. then it comes time for my boyfriend to come home... FINALLY!! after three months i finally get to be with him!
His family decide's that the whole week of his graduation their going to go down there and rent a house and have a vacation. i, of course was invited but declined because i wanted to stay behind with his best friend so i knew i could get her up to his graduation to see him. so i stayed and sure enough found a way to get her up there without using money nor having any worries. My father drives us half way up to meet with my boyfriends best friend and his older sister to pick us up and take us the rest of the way to south Carolina. the whole way there she uses my phone because her parents took her's up. and me and my dad just talk. we finally get to the meeting spot and my dad is trying to help me find a place to use the bathroom and to give me some money. so when i jump in the car with my the others my dad follows us to make sure i find somewhere to stop and pee and to give me some money. just making sure that the only thing he has left in the world is going to be ok and safe. and the older sister to my boyfriend is filming the situation you can hear the other girl talking shit about my father... calling him a creeper and what not. you know right after he found time away from his dying wife to drive her ass two hours on a work night for him. yeah, good job jerk! but i let it roll like everything else.
then we head on our happy ways to the vacation house when we decide to stop and get a bite to eat. while we're all sitting there just talking the friend makes comments suggesting that me and drew are going to "get knocked up," and that "it'll probably happen now that drew is dating me." calling me a whore and trash. yet again... i let it roll off. and then we all hop in the car and go on ward to carolina.
then when we hit there all is well, i've vented and let all anger out. and then it's my boyfriend graduation. we get ready and then all go to see him. everything is going great but i still feel the need to vent so me and his sister are still venting by passing the cell phone around... i know how much men hate this it's just as bad as whispering to someone else, but hey it kept me from being a complete ass to his best friend so he shouldn't bitch. anyways, she comes in and tells me to stop (his best friend not his sister) and i tell her it wasn't about him... whatever... and then she starts bitching to him telling him that me and his sister are bitching about her. number one.. so?!?! i didn't hit you in the gina so don't bitch! and then she starts all this crap about she doesn't want to come over just for the simple fact that me and his sister was being mean to her! boo hoo! fucking shut up! and then all this shit went down with her mom texting me and i text her back telling her the truth (saying NOTHING about the girl herself) and then i get thrown into some dumb shit about me talking shit... nothing actually happened!
which brings us to today. i've been spending the entire time with my boyfriend since he's been back... not to mention that i've been taking time off from my mom (who's dying) to be with him. and his "best friend," hasn't been there at all since i would make it (and his older sister) "uncomfortable" for her. anyways, she wanted him to come down to her and i got pissed... why the hell would she do that if i've NEVER said anything at all about her! but all through this i've kept my mouth shut to him. not to throw him in between me and his best friends shit. but yet she still goes to him to complain about the everything. really putting him in the middle of everything about me (his girlfriend) and her (his best friend). sorry, i'm not that type of person to make him choose. i'm not jealous at all! i don't give two cents! really!!! if she will take the time from her busy schedule to come see him i don't care! but from all the crap that she has put him trough i wont allow him to just fall to her command and allow himself to always be wrapped around her finger. i'm sorry. i'll be nice and keep my elegance but i'll never just allow myself to her door mat again! nor him! i love him too much to allow that to happen to him either the end!

my question is... am i in the wrong for turning the other cheek always? or should i be mean to my enemy?

well, no more interning. which is a relief and a disappointment. sure it'll start back up in a few months but i really enjoying working. i like office work. now i have to find a new job. I hate job hunting... and as a college student i have only a select few options...

first off i hate working in any sort of food indistry. It's freaking hard and you get paid the bare minimal for putting up with EVERYONE in todays society. working for a lawyer yes you have to put up with some of the wildest creatures in humanity today. i will tell you i have looked up and defended a crimanal... but at least i wasn't serving him and he's yelling at me on how his fillet was cooked. people are so nick picky at restraunts. would you honestly talk to you mother or wife who just prepared a meal fo you how you wanted it like that if it was a little bit off from what you EXCACTLY wanted? i don't think so because you'd be doing with out supper. as you should if you're rude to a waiting staff! also fast food digust me! really, i'm adicted but i'm breaking it off with a very hard core diet... compliments of my trainer... thankx jim! NOT! anyways, if something you wanted is cooked that fast and given to you within min... it can't be good for you!!

secondly... i hate working as a shop girl. not the kind at the atto place... the kind that helps you get a dressing room, find your size, tells you if you look fat or not... I HATE DOING THAT!!! i really really do! i guess it wouldn't be so bad that eeryone you're working with wasn't such drama queens! usually in these enviroments the people who are working there think their better than the regular employee. lets give an exsample. you find a pair of flats you LOVE. the sales assoicate comes and ask what size... you tell her and you try them on while she raves about how wonderful they look on you. then you find out the price... ok, it's not in your budget because a million and one bills are due next week... so you turn them down and say sorry but not today. she then proceeds to give you a horrible look saying, "oh, well mabe next time." and slowly puts them aways like in some kind of horror story... and you know she's thinking, "Shouldn't she of looked at the price before making me find the right size for her largely porportioned feet!" and you feel humiliatied. you leave and promise to never return! yeah, i hate that! I'm not the normal girl that can go "window shopping." if i'm going to shopping i'm on a mission and i go in get it and leave. i was taught by the best... my father.

lastly i hate babysitting. ok, it's fine when you're getting paid properly. but when it's not enough money and the kid is just a straight up brat it kinda turns you off from thinking you want any of your own. Plus, it's a firm belief of my own that it takes a villiage to raise a child. and as a villiager i should have the right to spank your kids ass if it does wrong!!

So, there's my reasons that i'm going to hate my horrible paying, non-reliable, sucky job. because it was heaven! compared to every other option i have.

sucks...

i push papers all day, i write phone messages, i see and deal with ALL walks of life, i do everything that the lawyer is to "busy" to do! Like vaccum, clean the bathroom (ekk!), answer and deal with the clients he doesn't want too... while he's busy... busy= i don't know, jerking off? gah, i can't wait till i'm done with my degree! LOL!! this just makes me work harder for it.

so, lets see... what's new? I'm back to living at home... kinda. I'm going back and forth between my mom's lake house to my grandparents every now and then... my life is pretty much open at the moment. all i do is work, clean house, get ready for pageant season, and church. though working is really an internship so i do the crappy jobs... and cleaning house i have two houses i clean... and getting ready for pageant season consist of working with my platform, working out, practicing violin, and getting another job to just pay for the dresses and attire required to compete. then there's church. I cook something for dinner every third sunday and i help where need be... i like to call myself a promeint member. LOL!! so, life is full. espically with the side order of classes. which i will be graduating in dec. and getting ready for summer semester at uga or tech! which ever works out best i guess.

So, that's what's recent in the not so intereting world of me...

oh, one other thing. I have a new boyfriend. his name is drew. he's in the marines and is at boot camp at the moment... we don't know how this is going to work but we're giving in a try!

love you all! hope your day is great! god bless!

P.S. Liv is trying to get up 400 before this friday for her down payment for her mission. we'll be asking door to door today but please if you can spare some time pray that we can get enough up for her to go! it's her passion in life. Just keep her up in your prayers and hope for the best!

asta pasta,

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